I'm Home

I was hoping to update my blog daily, but really didn't have the time.  I wanted to cherish as much time with Macy that I could.  As I posted before, the first day went well with a little struggles.  Macy had some stress and anxiety having both K and myself there.  The next day went really well for the most part.  K had taken the other kids for the day and Macy and I got to spend the day toghether just the two of us.  We spent about 4 hours talking and singing while doing her hair.  Her hair has always been so important to her.  She loved earning a special style that I had learned to do.  I told her Wednesday morning that I was going to do it the way she likes.  She got real excited and gave me a big hug.  It really did take 4 hours undoing the braids she had and then twisting and untwisting  her spirals.  The reaction after it was done wasn't quite what I had hoped for, but over a short time she began to love it.  She wasn't used to it this way.  K kept telling her that she looked like a Sorensen.  I think that helped her like it better.  That day I really saw the transition in her.  She expressed a lot of emotion.  This was a side of Macy that I have never seen.  Our time together was full of cuddling, crying, laughing and loving.  It really couldn't have gone better.  In the pictures you can see the transition in her eyes.  The pictures with the braids are of the first day and with the beautiful curls the second and third day.  You can see those last two days the light in her eyes. 
The last day Macy and I went for a walk before leaving for the airport.  We talked about how things used to be with the raging and the yucky stuff she used to do.  She told me "I don't do that anymore, Mommy."  It was so sweet to hear.  We talked about what she needed to work on before coming home and she promised that she will keep working hard.  I fell in love with my little girl again.  I really had a hard time being home on Friday.  I missed my family very much, but someone was missing when I got home.  I haven't felt that way in a long time.  This time that Macy has been away has been healing time for me too. I'm feeling so much love for her and feeling emotionally stronger.  I can't wait for her to come home.

K thinks that Macy will be able to come home sooner then we first thought.  It is up to Macy and how well she heals over the next couple of months, but we are hoping it will be mid to end of February.  We could still use your help for her treatment for the next couple of months.  So if you would like to make a donation it would be very much appreciated. I want to thank all of you for your love, support and prayers.  Happy Holidays!